Speak by Felwa Al Saud

Posted on April 27, 2013 by


I will not speak of the way I am bound to you by strings of my own weakness, nor will I speak of the way you make me feel when your eyes prey on me. I will not break myself in order to build you, but I would wholeheartedly shatter myself to a million pieces to fly you to the peak of the highest mountain and keep you there without you knowing it was me who got you to the top.

I will not speak of the way my heart is stunned by the collision with my brain, nor will I speak of the way it pirouettes every time you whisper sweet nothings into my ear. I will not forgive myself for ever making you feel as if you lost me, because you never did, and you never will. You’re always here because I can not let go of the thought of you even when I’m sound asleep. I can not stop thinking about you even when I’m fully alert.

I will not speak of how you turned me crazy and how you’re not doing a very good job at being a straight jacket, nor will I speak of how you always tell me not to trust anyone, because my dear, I have poured all my trust into you. I can not stop the hurricane of thoughts destroying everything in its path, I can not stop over thinking every sentence you say. And for a moment, I stop believing in you, but then you restore all my hope and faith.

I will not speak of how I’m sure when you laugh, every living creature in the universe stops, and the human race is shocked with a sudden feeling of divinity and pride because one of its own is this magnificent. I can not even begin to describe the feeling of superiority I get whenever I remember that you are all mine.

I will not speak of how my love for you feels far too great to be real, but it is, and I’m sure of that, nor will I speak of how you’re the only thing I’m really sure about. I can not begin to explain how much of a coward I really am, or how fragile I am. But when it comes to you, I’m brave as can be, yet still powerless.

I will not speak of how much I want to speak of anything and everything about you, nor will I speak of how everything around me screams your name and reminds me of you even when you’re already invading my mind. I would rather not let you know how I fall in love with you over and over again every single second.

I will not speak of how terrified I am of the way I feel, nor will I speak of how much I want you to stay.
Please stay.

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